giving up my career

There are things in life that I am passionate about...design, photography, interior deco and motherhood. When i make decision to giving up my dream career...i've think it all so many times. i've never could done this if its bcoz of arman adli. its for arman adli. yes, arman adli. my one and only son...

since adli was tiny...bile bekerja, he's being take care of by my mom and dad. my parent sacrifice a lot...for 6 month diorang tak kuar berbisnes hanye kerana ingin menjaga adli. later after 6month they take turns jaga adli bile salah sorang kuar berbisnes. me, as a mother... xsampai hati terusan menyusahkan mereka walaupun mereka xpenah merungut menjaga adli. orang laen maybe boleh buat macam tu...but not me.

i'm a mother, i have to take care of my own son. i want to see him growing up in front of me. i want to be the first who see's him talk, walk and everything... i'm not a mommy who can bole tahan dn sampai hati menhantar anak dia ke nursery. tambah lagi sekarang macam-macam hal berlaku insiden seriau kat nursery. i just can't. not until now...mungkin tunggu dia besar sket baru leh hantar pengasuh ataupun amek maid bile kami da duduk dirumah sendiri nanti. Or maybe tunggu adli da besar sket, i can go back working again. tengokla macam mane nanti...

Yes, I do miss bringing home my monthly income but 24 hours with my son is priceless. I get to be with him at home and work and once again, how many mums can actually proclaim that to the world?

but for sometimes...I felt useless. I felt like a burden to hubby. One thing led to another and we bought our own house. At this point, my husband was the only one earning a good income. Not me... hanye ade income bile ade freelance job. Other mums have to work eight to 10 hours to make the kind of money, I was making in just 2-3 hours! The more I thought about it, the more depressed. bekerja sendiri dan membuat bisnes tadela dapat income selebat income dulu... tapi bersyukur kepadanya walaupun sikit atau banyak rezeki ku tak pernah putus. Alhamdulillah.

I thank God that we're blessed. Sometimes, even with a tight financial situation, Alhamdulillah we still manage to stay afloat and have loads of quality family time ....

If there's a will, there's a way. It's a struggle but at the end of the day, it's all worth it. :)