Hate . Me . Not

How to say when u've been hated by someone or other people? Well, haters make me really sad. I care too much what people say and I don't like when people don't like me...i just can't!

I usually knows when people who are actually don't like me. To tell the truth it's hard for me to not like other people but if i do...i probably simpan dalam hati dn senyap rather than cakap yg bukan-bukan pasal orang tu. For me...tak guna nak cakap banyak kalo kita sendiri pun lom tentu sempurna pastu nak mengata orang lg. I have a few friend which is like that....I've been trying to be nice, not only that...i thought we're besties! but at the end...she's the one who putuskan friendship n siratulrahim between us. Seteruk-teruk I la...lom tergamak nak putuskan firendship/siratulrahim

Some of them really hurts me...I trusted her n I even helped her...but at the end...I yang "kena" balik. At first, I'm so mad...ye la sape yang tak marah kan tapi mengenangkn kawan da lame kn, so just buat biase n maafkan je la. Me n my bestfriend Waniey pun same...orang buat la macam2 kat kami...kami cume senyum dn buat biase je n relax..Nak wat camne lg...if we gaduh atau bermasam muka pun tak guna...bukan dapat ape pun.

Satu je...Tuhan tu maha adil...suatu hari pasti DIA akan tunjuk sape yang benar dn sape yang salah. Sape yang malu dn sape yang tersenyum.

Diam tak bermakne kita salah...diam juga tak bermakne kita betul gak...I don't say that I'm alway right...Maybe I pon ade salah gak. Coz manusia tidak pernah lari dr kesilapan. It just that...Kalau kita tutup aib orang...Allah pasti akan tutup aib kita. Jadi SENYAP.

Maybe if i think too much of what other people would say about me...bole jadi gile kot. Tapi sebagai manusia yang beragama Islam...Apabila kita redha pada sesuatu yang mengecewakan hati kita, maka percayalah Allah akan menggantikan kekecewaan itu dengan sesuatu yang tidak dijangka... :)

hello 2012!

welcome 2012~!

it's been so long kot i da xblog. bz with design n photography work n meeting customer. skang baru dapat bernafas sket. huhu...

hello 2012! harap2 by end of 2012 da bole masuk rumah baru. harap sangat rumah siap on time. so cannot wait to deco2. some minor basic things da beli...hahahaha excited tak? gile excited! bukan i ok...hubby i. we're both memang da tak sabar nak pindah umah baru kami.

ok ignore it...now let's talk about lil' adli. my anak kesayangan is now susah nak makan. ditambah ngan keaktifan yang melampau...so makin kurus la badan dia. buat i risau sgt2. due to stress sgt tgk anak kesayangan i neh dok tamo makan...sampai i jatuh saket n ade high blood pressure. haaa bole tak??? anyway, now my blood pressure dah turun. Alhamdulillah.

ok enough for today...later on i story mory u ols about my bestfriend wedding plaks....:)

baby bag

if i get pregnant again i nak baby /diaper bag macam gamba atas neh...MARC BY MARC JACOBS ELIZ BABY BAG.

OMG...i'm so in love with it. sangat bagus! 3 in 1 ok! handbag, diaper bag dn shopping bag. terbaeekkkla!
oh ya...this nylon tote bag neh pun leh jadi baby/diaper bag gak...cute kan. mbmj bag sgt practical ok.

nape tak guna yang lame? well...when it goes to shopping...i mean when i have to shop alone together with my very beloved son adli, my handbags usually akan jadi mcm omg ni handbag ke tong sampah? yerla xkan i nak bawak banyak bag kot. nak bawak diaper bag yg ade skang ade lah sangat tak cool k...coz usually my darling hubby yang bawak...so mostly sesuai tuk dia pegang atau bawak je. i ade small graco sling bag which is my hubby bought it for me...so senang bile i kuar nanti. but then it wont fit my wallet if da letak botol susu...botol air, pamper dn laen2. tapi kekdg pakai gak kalo kuar kejap2 dekat2 sini ...so tu la yang terpakse la bawak handbag... sebelah tangan bawak handbag dn sebelah lagi pegang adli. sumtime my bag kan berterabur with lil adli food dn ade kala nya susu adli tumpah habes banjir bag mak ok!!!
so kalo guna bag mbmj neh tumpah susu or whatever la kan just basuh je...xmacam handabag kalo basuh 2-3 kali maunye jahanam kan.

harga? bole tahan la...tapi berbaloi2 gak. huarghhhh ikut hati maunye i beli online skang tapi tamo laaa...have to save money for other things. lagi pun lil' adli da sudah besar mcm xperlukot baby bag yang besar buat mase neh....so tunggu je la second baby nanti...setakat neh kita relax dulu :)

ready for another one?

i was thinking of it lately...am i ready enough to get another one?

Some say it's even harder than deciding whether to have another on...with each new child I have to think about how that baby will affect my lifestyle, finances, work, relationships, and, of course, my son. And if I listen to the word on the street, growing my family by one means more than double the work for Me n hubby. anyway...thats not about it.

actually i'm ok if there's come another one. i don't want to wait more longer...since we're getting old and old. hahahaha. but its better if the another one comes when we have move in to our new house. aduhai...lamenye nak siap rumah. so cannot wait!!!

anyway, i don't mind if tetibe there's a bun in oven...tu namenye rezeki dn anugerah yang di turunkan oleh Allah. so bersyukur je la. :) hopefully la dapat girl pas neh. kena plan baek punye. hahahaha. juz joking. mane2 pun ok.

ok...enough said. need to continue my work...waiting list ngah panjang gile. kang ade yang mengamuk lambat dapat album...huhu.

nursery baby

hi peep!

mommy here is so bz lately neh...will be bz until the end of year. alhamdulillah. rezeki. :)

last week, sadly our next door neighbour kehilangan anak mereka yang baru nak masuk 3 bulan akibat tersedak susu mase kat nursery. terkejut, sedih, sebak, dn sayu dengar. selama ni hanya dengar dn baca berita kat tv atau paper. xsangka jiran sebelah umah terkena. lom abes rase sakit bersalin...da kehilangan anak. sian nye. and the nursery owner bile datang hospital senang-senang je minta maaf. juz don't understand nape baby sorang je yang dijaga kat nursery bole tersedak susu? careless ok! that's why i sanggup berhenti kerja kerna nak jaga anak. i don't trust them!
my parent cakap...duit bole cari tapi bukan anak. ingat senang ke nak dapat anak? some people sorang pun susah nak dapat...anak angkat bole la kot. hmm ntahla...orang dulu-dulu jarang plak terdengar baby meninggal tersedak susu. zaman skang neh memacam. ade my friend punye mak punye kawan...anak dia pun baru meninggal gak... tapi nih bukan tersedak susu. dijaga oleh maid. maid depan tuan dia nampak baek sgt sampai orang pun xsangka dia penyebab segalanya. baby tu mase ketiadaan mak bapak dia selalu kepala baby di hentak ngan objek keras dn menyebab kan pendarahan dlm otak. siannye laa nape lah ade manusia jenis macam ni yang taktau nak mengasihi dn kesian ngan baby yang tatau pape. iskkk. seriau ah.

harap-harap manusia jenis macam ni yang suka menganiaya baby neh dihukum setimpalnye.

giving up my career

There are things in life that I am passionate about...design, photography, interior deco and motherhood. When i make decision to giving up my dream career...i've think it all so many times. i've never could done this if its bcoz of arman adli. its for arman adli. yes, arman adli. my one and only son...

since adli was tiny...bile bekerja, he's being take care of by my mom and dad. my parent sacrifice a lot...for 6 month diorang tak kuar berbisnes hanye kerana ingin menjaga adli. later after 6month they take turns jaga adli bile salah sorang kuar berbisnes. me, as a mother... xsampai hati terusan menyusahkan mereka walaupun mereka xpenah merungut menjaga adli. orang laen maybe boleh buat macam tu...but not me.

i'm a mother, i have to take care of my own son. i want to see him growing up in front of me. i want to be the first who see's him talk, walk and everything... i'm not a mommy who can bole tahan dn sampai hati menhantar anak dia ke nursery. tambah lagi sekarang macam-macam hal berlaku insiden seriau kat nursery. i just can't. not until now...mungkin tunggu dia besar sket baru leh hantar pengasuh ataupun amek maid bile kami da duduk dirumah sendiri nanti. Or maybe tunggu adli da besar sket, i can go back working again. tengokla macam mane nanti...

Yes, I do miss bringing home my monthly income but 24 hours with my son is priceless. I get to be with him at home and work and once again, how many mums can actually proclaim that to the world?

but for sometimes...I felt useless. I felt like a burden to hubby. One thing led to another and we bought our own house. At this point, my husband was the only one earning a good income. Not me... hanye ade income bile ade freelance job. Other mums have to work eight to 10 hours to make the kind of money, I was making in just 2-3 hours! The more I thought about it, the more depressed. bekerja sendiri dan membuat bisnes tadela dapat income selebat income dulu... tapi bersyukur kepadanya walaupun sikit atau banyak rezeki ku tak pernah putus. Alhamdulillah.

I thank God that we're blessed. Sometimes, even with a tight financial situation, Alhamdulillah we still manage to stay afloat and have loads of quality family time ....

If there's a will, there's a way. It's a struggle but at the end of the day, it's all worth it. :)

i hate...

nothing more important than my darling baby adli. semuanya pasal adli...i sacrifice a lot bcoz of this lil' baby. only god knows why. i can't imagine if i lost him... hmm rase tak paham kenapa masih ade orang sanggup buang bayi. even campak bayi dari tingkat 5. bodo betul la tade perasaan kot?

dunno what to say. teringat plak...one of my friend said..."orang yang buang bayi neh rase tak saket kot mase beranak sebab tu derang senang-senang je buang anak". ntahla mungkin kot.

practically, i'm still learning to be a good mummy. walaupun bukan mummy yang cukup sempurna...tapi setiap hari kita belajar untuk jadi lebih sempurna dari hari sebelumnya. :)

hari ni terbaca status seorang kawan di fb...yang baru lahirkan anak ke-2 tapi stress melampau kerana sang suami seolah-olah tidak mahu tolong...sedangkan si isteri dah la masih berpantang kena layan 2 orang anak lagi, mahu jaga makan minum...pakai-makai si suami lagi. yang si suami tahu...tahu marah tahu hangin...dn buat tak tahu. isterinya bukannye larat sangat pon nak buat semua menda. hmmm sumtimes i juz don't understand with some sang suami ni...nape tak bole nak bertolak ansur dn cuba fahami perasaan sang isteri. bukan susah pun...cube la fahami isteri anda...bantu ape yang patut. ini tidak semuanye di letakkan kat bahu sang isteri. sudahla melahirkan anak tu bukan senang...nak menjaga anak pun tak mahu turut membantu. xpahamla. buat anak pandai...nak anak pun nak gak tapi tak reti dn tak mahu jaga anak. ape kes? kasihani la sang isteri...hargai lah isteri anda...kalau dia bole berkorban kenapa tidak kamu?isk isk isk hopefully my friend tu tadela kena meroyan...mintak dijauhkan...Aminnn.

enuff about that...my darling uncle is back! so happy that he bought so many things for us...thanx cle. next week been a bz week for me...my uncle will be staying with us for a week...so, i'm not around in the moment...bz dating with him, adli n fara. hahaha. thursday plak planing to go bukit tinggi...later on friday evening...da kena setup bilik waniey for her engagement ceremony. sarung cincin kat bilik tu! huhu. my bff is getting married next year! akhirnya 11 june ni dia jadi tunangan orang. happy for her!

orite enuff for today...later on when i'm free...i will continue blogging! daaa~