my mind knows no bounds...

hello 2012!

2012-01-09T16:48:00.005+08:00

welcome 2012~!

it's been so long kot i da xblog. bz with design n photography work n meeting customer. skang baru dapat bernafas sket. huhu...

hello 2012! harap2 by end of 2012 da bole masuk rumah baru. harap sangat rumah siap on time. so cannot wait to deco2. some minor basic things da beli...hahahaha excited tak? gile excited! bukan i ok...hubby i. we're both memang da tak sabar nak pindah umah baru kami.

ok ignore it...now let's talk about lil' adli. my anak kesayangan is now susah nak makan. ditambah ngan keaktifan yang melampau...so makin kurus la badan dia. buat i risau sgt2. due to stress sgt tgk anak kesayangan i neh dok tamo makan...sampai i jatuh saket n ade high blood pressure. haaa bole tak??? anyway, now my blood pressure dah turun. Alhamdulillah.

ok enough for today...later on i story mory u ols about my bestfriend wedding plaks....:)

baby bag

2011-11-17T15:24:00.004+08:00

if i get pregnant again i nak baby /diaper bag macam gamba atas neh...MARC BY MARC JACOBS ELIZ BABY BAG.

OMG...i'm so in love with it. sangat bagus! 3 in 1 ok! handbag, diaper bag dn shopping bag. terbaeekkkla!
oh ya...this nylon tote bag neh pun leh jadi baby/diaper bag gak...cute kan. mbmj bag sgt practical ok.

nape tak guna yang lame? well...when it goes to shopping...i mean when i have to shop alone together with my very beloved son adli, my handbags usually akan jadi mcm omg ni handbag ke tong sampah? yerla xkan i nak bawak banyak bag kot. nak bawak diaper bag yg ade skang ade lah sangat tak cool k...coz usually my darling hubby yang bawak...so mostly sesuai tuk dia pegang atau bawak je. i ade small graco sling bag which is my hubby bought it for me...so senang bile i kuar nanti. but then it wont fit my wallet if da letak botol susu...botol air, pamper dn laen2. tapi kekdg pakai gak kalo kuar kejap2 dekat2 sini ...so tu la yang terpakse la bawak handbag... sebelah tangan bawak handbag dn sebelah lagi pegang adli. sumtime my bag kan berterabur with lil adli food dn ade kala nya susu adli tumpah habes banjir bag mak ok!!!
so kalo guna bag mbmj neh tumpah susu or whatever la kan just basuh je...xmacam handabag kalo basuh 2-3 kali maunye jahanam kan.

harga? bole tahan la...tapi berbaloi2 gak. huarghhhh ikut hati maunye i beli online skang tapi tamo laaa...have to save money for other things. lagi pun lil' adli da sudah besar mcm xperlukot baby bag yang besar buat mase neh....so tunggu je la second baby nanti...setakat neh kita relax dulu :)

ready for another one?

2011-11-15T09:41:00.002+08:00

i was thinking of it lately...am i ready enough to get another one?

Some say it's even harder than deciding whether to have another on...with each new child I have to think about how that baby will affect my lifestyle, finances, work, relationships, and, of course, my son. And if I listen to the word on the street, growing my family by one means more than double the work for Me n hubby. anyway...thats not about it.

actually i'm ok if there's come another one. i don't want to wait more longer...since we're getting old and old. hahahaha. but its better if the another one comes when we have move in to our new house. aduhai...lamenye nak siap rumah. so cannot wait!!!

anyway, i don't mind if tetibe there's a bun in oven...tu namenye rezeki dn anugerah yang di turunkan oleh Allah. so bersyukur je la. :) hopefully la dapat girl pas neh. kena plan baek punye. hahahaha. juz joking. mane2 pun ok.

ok...enough said. need to continue my work...waiting list ngah panjang gile. kang ade yang mengamuk lambat dapat album...huhu.

nursery baby

2011-09-14T10:55:00.004+08:00

hi peep!

mommy here is so bz lately neh...will be bz until the end of year. alhamdulillah. rezeki. :)

last week, sadly our next door neighbour kehilangan anak mereka yang baru nak masuk 3 bulan akibat tersedak susu mase kat nursery. terkejut, sedih, sebak, dn sayu dengar. selama ni hanya dengar dn baca berita kat tv atau paper. xsangka jiran sebelah umah terkena. lom abes rase sakit bersalin...da kehilangan anak. sian nye. and the nursery owner bile datang hospital senang-senang je minta maaf. juz don't understand nape baby sorang je yang dijaga kat nursery bole tersedak susu? careless ok! that's why i sanggup berhenti kerja kerna nak jaga anak. i don't trust them!
my parent cakap...duit bole cari tapi bukan anak. ingat senang ke nak dapat anak? some people sorang pun susah nak dapat...anak angkat bole la kot. hmm ntahla...orang dulu-dulu jarang plak terdengar baby meninggal tersedak susu. zaman skang neh memacam. ade my friend punye mak punye kawan...anak dia pun baru meninggal gak... tapi nih bukan tersedak susu. dijaga oleh maid. maid depan tuan dia nampak baek sgt sampai orang pun xsangka dia penyebab segalanya. baby tu mase ketiadaan mak bapak dia selalu kepala baby di hentak ngan objek keras dn menyebab kan pendarahan dlm otak. siannye laa nape lah ade manusia jenis macam ni yang taktau nak mengasihi dn kesian ngan baby yang tatau pape. iskkk. seriau ah.

harap-harap manusia jenis macam ni yang suka menganiaya baby neh dihukum setimpalnye.

giving up my career

2011-06-29T14:48:00.007+08:00

There are things in life that I am passionate about...design, photography, interior deco and motherhood. When i make decision to giving up my dream career...i've think it all so many times. i've never could done this if its bcoz of arman adli. its for arman adli. yes, arman adli. my one and only son...

since adli was tiny...bile bekerja, he's being take care of by my mom and dad. my parent sacrifice a lot...for 6 month diorang tak kuar berbisnes hanye kerana ingin menjaga adli. later after 6month they take turns jaga adli bile salah sorang kuar berbisnes. me, as a mother... xsampai hati terusan menyusahkan mereka walaupun mereka xpenah merungut menjaga adli. orang laen maybe boleh buat macam tu...but not me.

i'm a mother, i have to take care of my own son. i want to see him growing up in front of me. i want to be the first who see's him talk, walk and everything... i'm not a mommy who can bole tahan dn sampai hati menhantar anak dia ke nursery. tambah lagi sekarang macam-macam hal berlaku insiden seriau kat nursery. i just can't. not until now...mungkin tunggu dia besar sket baru leh hantar pengasuh ataupun amek maid bile kami da duduk dirumah sendiri nanti. Or maybe tunggu adli da besar sket, i can go back working again. tengokla macam mane nanti...

Yes, I do miss bringing home my monthly income but 24 hours with my son is priceless. I get to be with him at home and work and once again, how many mums can actually proclaim that to the world?

but for sometimes...I felt useless. I felt like a burden to hubby. One thing led to another and we bought our own house. At this point, my husband was the only one earning a good income. Not me... hanye ade income bile ade freelance job. Other mums have to work eight to 10 hours to make the kind of money, I was making in just 2-3 hours! The more I thought about it, the more depressed. bekerja sendiri dan membuat bisnes tadela dapat income selebat income dulu... tapi bersyukur kepadanya walaupun sikit atau banyak rezeki ku tak pernah putus. Alhamdulillah.

I thank God that we're blessed. Sometimes, even with a tight financial situation, Alhamdulillah we still manage to stay afloat and have loads of quality family time ....

If there's a will, there's a way. It's a struggle but at the end of the day, it's all worth it. :)

i hate...

2011-06-02T14:32:00.005+08:00

nothing more important than my darling baby adli. semuanya pasal adli...i sacrifice a lot bcoz of this lil' baby. only god knows why. i can't imagine if i lost him... hmm rase tak paham kenapa masih ade orang sanggup buang bayi. even campak bayi dari tingkat 5. bodo betul la tade perasaan kot?

dunno what to say. teringat plak...one of my friend said..."orang yang buang bayi neh rase tak saket kot mase beranak sebab tu derang senang-senang je buang anak". ntahla mungkin kot.

practically, i'm still learning to be a good mummy. walaupun bukan mummy yang cukup sempurna...tapi setiap hari kita belajar untuk jadi lebih sempurna dari hari sebelumnya. :)

hari ni terbaca status seorang kawan di fb...yang baru lahirkan anak ke-2 tapi stress melampau kerana sang suami seolah-olah tidak mahu tolong...sedangkan si isteri dah la masih berpantang kena layan 2 orang anak lagi, mahu jaga makan minum...pakai-makai si suami lagi. yang si suami tahu...tahu marah tahu hangin...dn buat tak tahu. isterinya bukannye larat sangat pon nak buat semua menda. hmmm sumtimes i juz don't understand with some sang suami ni...nape tak bole nak bertolak ansur dn cuba fahami perasaan sang isteri. bukan susah pun...cube la fahami isteri anda...bantu ape yang patut. ini tidak semuanye di letakkan kat bahu sang isteri. sudahla melahirkan anak tu bukan senang...nak menjaga anak pun tak mahu turut membantu. xpahamla. buat anak pandai...nak anak pun nak gak tapi tak reti dn tak mahu jaga anak. ape kes? kasihani la sang isteri...hargai lah isteri anda...kalau dia bole berkorban kenapa tidak kamu?isk isk isk hopefully my friend tu tadela kena meroyan...mintak dijauhkan...Aminnn.

enuff about that...my darling uncle is back! so happy that he bought so many things for us...thanx cle. next week been a bz week for me...my uncle will be staying with us for a week...so, i'm not around in the moment...bz dating with him, adli n fara. hahaha. thursday plak planing to go bukit tinggi...later on friday evening...da kena setup bilik waniey for her engagement ceremony. sarung cincin kat bilik tu! huhu. my bff is getting married next year! akhirnya 11 june ni dia jadi tunangan orang. happy for her!

orite enuff for today...later on when i'm free...i will continue blogging! daaa~

do not understand

2011-05-10T09:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, u find it hard to tell someone about ur feelings, but u don’t notice that u’re already acting it!

l u l u h

2011-05-08T16:33:00.003+08:00

aku dah lame tak menangis...
namun hari ini air mata ku menitis jua akhirnya...

mother's day!

2011-05-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

slightly can't understand with some people with unmatured thinking...cakap tak gune otak. ikut perasaan tanpe memikirkan perasaan orang laen. adeyh tak paham la...

sorry about that...just a bit angry to some people who doesn't seems to understand other people feelings. hmmm...forget about that anyway...

i've been bz running here n there to finish up my client work...then pas neh leh pk family party weekend neh...weehoo. 4 in 1 celebrations. first...it's a surprise 31 anniversary for my parents...celebrating mother's day, my bro birthday and also my mom early birthday celebration. we adik beradik...share money...to buy presents n other things. usually we all makan n celebrate kat luar je. tapi tahun ni nak buat laen sket. hopefully they will like it.

this year its my first time celebrating mother's day as a mummy! wowwww wwweeee. tak sangka i neh mummy orang. huahauahaua. anyway, glad to be mummy actually. bestest thing ever happen in my life. i love being mummy! i love my son so much! he mean a lot to me. jatuh sket pun macam nk tercabut je nyawa rasenye. huhu. anyway...melahirkan seorang bayi yang kita kendong dalam perut selama 9 bulan ade lah sangat happy momen dn rase diri neh amat hebat. bile dah jadi mummy ni...now, i know betapa susah parents kita jaga kita selama ni. semua perlukan pengorbanan.

8 may is mother's day! to all mommy, mama, ibu, bonda...Happy mother's day!

new . updates !

2011-03-24T18:12:00.004+08:00

Heyya…I’m back! Currently been bz doing my own research on some lil’ business. Many things to do. I’m now thinking of using my expertise to make business. I want to have and running my own party planning business with attractive and innovative ideas. FYI, I'm still doing design and photography too.

Oh ya, insyaAllah…if ada rezeki…we probably bought a house in Shah Alam. Why shah alam? Coz kat subang da tade rumah baru… sumore mahal nak mampus. Which is tak masuk akalnye harga. Shah alam…ok ape?

My lil’ darlink now da 8mos. It’s been 2 month since he has started his solid food. Yummy yum…makin berisi anak mummy nih. Sejak start with solid food…pantang tengok kitorang makan dia pun nk makan gak. Hehehe suka tengok dia makan…pandai plak tu kunyah.

Now my lil'b da pandai bangun dan duduk...pandai bye bye orang...pandai kata takmo melalui cara dia lahhh ofcos. =D hahaha kalo cerita kepandaian my lil' adli neh sampai ke esok tak abes!
I'm so happy tengok my lil' adli membesar depan mata...my only lil' boy da besar da!. penat macam mane pun bile dapat tengok dia didepan mata....hilang segala kepenatan. eheks...

bz mommy!

2011-01-16T11:36:00.003+08:00

it's been so long...i did not blog. actually, i have no much time to blog. balik kerja da nak kena masak and breastfeed my baby...pastu nak lipat baju lagi...pastu nak bagi baby makan lagi...pastu nak tdo kan dia lagi...pastu n pastu n pastu...at the end. PENAT dan tdo. Facebook? kalo larat dn tak ngantuk facebook lah...if tak weekend baru ade kesempatan. Luckily, we stay at my parent house... so banyak menda yang derang tolong buat...my hubby? rutin harian dia...basuh botol, buat susu malam2 dn basuh baju baby even jemur the baju ok. macam tu lah hubby i. heheheh.

nowadays... baru perasan my lil b dah nak masuk six month....wahhhh da besar anak mummy! rase macam semalam je baru lahirkan dia. now da pandai macam2...at 2month plus, dia da pandai pegang botol sendiri...4 month dia bole sebut nama sendiri, abah, dn air (pelat), 5 month, when he breast feed bile da takmo lagi...he usually will say..."DAH". Bile shopping lame sangat...when he gets bored and want to go home...he usually will tepuk2 belakang mummy n say...dahhhh dahhh dahhh...hahaha. means, mummy sudah2 la shopping tu! bile jumpe perempuan...dia malu-malu n tutup muka dia. but one thing dia paling tak suka...pergi kenduri kahwin! usually dia akan nanges...tak kira la time tu ade tetamu paling VIP ke...he will cried out loud! rimas kot tengok ramai orang.

i think....setakat nih dulu la kot...need to masak for lunch! will continue writing bile ade mase lagi...hehehe

Arman Adli

2010-08-28T16:22:00.006+08:00

Juz want to update setelah lame tak berblog...currently my lil baby boy da pun selamat kuar dr perut mummy dia neh on 23 july 2010. his name is arman adli.

i've been bz with my lil boy...sampai nak berblog pun da xsempat. seb baek masih sempat tuk berfesbuk lagi...hahaha. I'm very blessed with our new addition to the family. now dah rase macam my family da complete da...hehehe for time being laa! second baby have to wait within 2 years la kot. kasi lil arman adli besar sket dulu. Anyway, kita merancang...Allah yang menentukan.

ok now... i just wanted to share what happened leading up to and after i gave birth. what i find most frustrating about what happened is that how i really wish i had a perfect normal birth but unluckily it didn't turn out like i want. i end up with c-section birth!

I was going for my checkup at my 38week of pregnancy...and i was told that i have to be induced the next morning since my air ketuban and amniotic fluid are not enough for lil baby. Being induced is a bit pain when it comes at nite. mase siang ok je...jarang rase contraction pain. i have been 2 times induced in three days but yet hanye dilated 1 cm only. contraction pain bole tahan lagi but for me kena seluk 2 jari doc every 6 hour for 3 days to see if i have dilated for how many cm is much big pain for me. So i decided to go for c-section on the third day eventhough my hubby still nak i go for normal birth on the next day. tapi amat mustahil bagi diri ini untuk dilated until atleast 2 cm more.

amek berkat hari jumaat...malam tu gak operate...takmo tunggu esok da. at 10pm i da masuk operation room and Alhamdulillah...10.38pm baby pun selamat kuar. terharu, sedeyh dn gembira juga macam-macam perasaan ade. nasib baek i decided to take c-section birth...arman adli is so big for me to go normal birth and tali pusat dia terbelit kat leher. tunggu laen hari pun takleh nak kuar normal.

basically...xdela frust sangat pun cannot go normal birth but glad that he came out completely healthy. The labor and delivery itself really didn't hurt at all.It was only mildly uncomfortable. hey c-section birth is not that bad. macam seronok je tapi yang tak besnya after birth la...abes bius dn kebas...mule la saket bahagian jahitan tu ditambah lagi i batuk mase tu mau tak bergegar perut tahan saket!

It was all worth it though and really much better than I thought it would be.

Upside-down baby!

2010-06-22T12:34:00.005+08:00

I am 34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. my lil' baby now gained 2.6kg this week. I've started my weekly checkup last 2 weeks. lil' baby head down and now engage. mild contraction everyday, painful but i think i still can handle it. my hip hurts and it constantly feels like its pinching a nerve.

Although baby head down...he's still active as usual. sometimes when i pee at nite...kul 3-5 pagi pun masih aktif maen2 dalam perut. i don't know where he got that energy. never mind...i lagi suka kalo dia aktif kalo dia tetibe senyap je...makes me even worried. time tu lah nak cari jus buah kasi dia reactive balik.

Our first year anniversary is coming...5 days to go! macam tak peracaye je da setahun. And now we will be having our baby so soon. so great! i'm so cannot wait to hold my lil baby and really hope everything went well when i'll give birth. pray for me ya! ;)

Hello roly...

2010-06-16T20:10:00.004+08:00

went for my 32weeks checkup last weekend. my lil' baby is 2 kg now. Last 2week checkup his weigh is 1.4kg. Doc suruh kurangkan makan...but i can't help it since i'm now always hungry all the time. i guess i should consider doc advise...ye lah takut baby besa sangat nanti susah plak mau push. doc also told us to get ready by 36 week. coz baby can come out anytime. aduhhh scary. that time i have my friend wedding and engagement invitation to be attend. sabar ye baby...tunggu mummy gi kenduri aunti seri dn aunty vie ek. =P

During these last few weeks of pregnancy, i experience an increased urge to urinate. naek letih kuar masuk toilet. its getting even worse when i went to sleep. every satu jam nak pee.Oh and the bladder control issues are getting worse and worse, i got those bladder control panty liner even, wait extra long after i pee and still 5mins later, drip drip drip....

I'm predicting this baby is going to come sooner then his due date, I at least want to make it to end of July though, I have had some sever sharp pains and a couple contraction in a week. soon, i will be entering my 34weeks within 2 days from now. wow...another 6 weeks to go. I'm so excited this is going really fast and i'm getting nervous but also stress...however, i gotta get ready!

another 10 weeks to go...

2010-05-27T12:56:00.004+08:00

at week 30 i feel as if i have been pregnant forever at this point. It might be hard to imagine being pregnant for another ten weeks, but my lil' baby still has a lot of growing and developing to do!

did i ever say that my air ketuban has started to discharge a bit? well...to tell the truth it did! i'm quite worried about it...since its too early to give birth. not only me who worried...my hubby too. my doctor says if the contraction had come more frequently every 20 minutes or my air ketuban pecah banyak...so better go to the hospital immediately.

Because i'm getting larger, i'm now becoming slower and clumsier. i've should try to be careful to avoid dangerous falls. my tulang pinggul dah 2 minggu saket...doc says that my lil' baby need a lot of calcium eventhough i've drink milk twice a day and eat calcium vit but still not enough...so have to eat more calcium and alhamdulillah its getting better now.

oh not to mention...the heat is killing me now!! so hot these days. my room aircon bole plak rosak. i usually get emotional when its hot. hopefully by this weekend orang tu free nak repair my aircon.

lil baby moves so so much! he likes to kick a lot since he has change his position. other than that i feel likes he's dancing when he heard loud music. feel funny when u've seen something is moving under ur shirt! =)

Quinny Winny

2010-04-28T15:33:00.004+08:00

We have looked at many strollers and we can honestly say the Quinny Zapp is the best of the lot. It is a 3 in one. They have the car seat, a baby carrier for a baby from 0- 12 months and a stroller for beyond that till 4 years old. Me and hubby are so in love with this system traveler. We've been searching and usha'ing this thing all over places to get the bestest price.

Besides quinny, hubby ade suke other stroller gak...but i don't even like it. hahaha. Well...we will see about it. coz mr hubby yang bayar. so he will decide. ;)

26 weeks

2010-04-24T16:14:00.006+08:00

i love being a pregger and loved being a mummy...i do enjoy every minute of being pregnant. lucky that i'm not having a hell of time through this first pregnancy. Another 97 days to go and i really hope it goes by too fast. i really can't wait for the moment.

Lately in the morning i have so much energy but when it comes to evening...i'm so tired! feels like i haven't sleep in ages! I don't have strecthmarks but i do have back pain and heartburn which is i do not like at all.

My lil' boy can now respond to noise outside or even when we talk to him. nowadays usually every evening he just kicks and punches and does the worm or something...my whole belly looks as if it has huge twiches...hehehe i'm getting to love it.

p.s: baby shopping is a lot of fun!

still a long way

2010-04-15T17:09:00.003+08:00

still a long way till my due...oh my expected due is supposed on 1 August not 3 August. salah pengiraan rupenya. anyway. doc cakap lil' baby will maybe came out earlier before due date. this is because of my blood pressure yang kadang-kala naik. But for now, alhamdulillah da normal balik. da hampir sebulan my blood pressure back to normal. how ever, i still need to continue my labetalol medicine regularly...coz doc takut my blood pressure naek lagi.

baby is active as usual...oh so cannot wait to see my lil baby! tak sabar nye nak dakap dn cium baby ku. teruja sangat!

this weekend, there will be an official maternity photoshoot for me n hubby. we had 2 maternity photoshoot before. one is in i-city which is we had never plan pun...amek just suke-suke je. tu pun pakai tripod dn dengan pertolongan my sis. the other one is from one of our friend. dia shoot untuk her portfolio collection. until now we all belum berkesempatan nak tengok hasil photoshoot tersebut...heheheh

oklah...got to go...later on i'll update more story-mory yah! ;)

from the inside...

2010-04-06T13:26:00.003+08:00

oh dah lame tak berblogging...been bz with my workload nowadays. besides check-up...i've been bz with some other occasion eventhough bukan semua i leh attend due to my pregnancy.

lil baby is now more active than before...as if like he is practicing martial art. adoyaaiii! kalo dulu hanye certain time je dia berkickboxing... haa la neh bape jam sekali dia wrestling dlm perut mummy dia. kadang-kadang tu bile dah malam time mummy dia nak tdo...every 2-3 mins he's kicking me. my sleep nite...sometimes, agak terganggu sedikit due to kesukaran bernafas. kekadang i kena tdo duduk. baby plak tak suke mummy dia tdo mengiring belah kanan...kalo tak mule lah dia menendang-nendang.

tapi yang paling kelakar bile dia makin mengganas...abah dia sentuh je perut mummy dia...terus dia invi. senyap dn tak tendang-tendang da lagi. takut kot ngan abah dia. hehehe.
that my lil baby! he definitely makes me smiles all the time. belum keluar lagi tapi da buat mummy dia happy dn senyum-senyum. can't wait to meet u!

lil' kicking

2010-03-18T13:06:00.002+08:00

last nite i feel my lil baby's kicking...lil baby first kick. i'm so happy till i cried. since baby is kicking me more often...more than 10 kicks. now, i know that my lil baby is ok. Sort of like bubbles, but it had a suction kind of feeling too. Strange but AMAZING!

p.s: how i wish my hubby with me and feel it too. too bad hubby is not around. outstation...

can't hardly wait...

2010-03-17T15:06:00.004+08:00

hey it's 20 weeks already...another 4 month to go. times really passed quickly. we are both can't hardly wait to see our lil baby. either its a girl or boy. it doesn't matter. asalkan baby tu sihat walafiat dn sempurna serta cukup sifatnya. buat kami amat rase bersyukur skali.

can't really wait for the next check-up this weekend. oh mummy can't wait to see u lil baby. ;)
kalo la bole that ultrasound thingy tu di bawa balik...dah lame ku guna dn scan tummy ku sendiri hanye untuk melihat baby ku setiap hari... bukan ku sorang je rase begini...kawan-kawanku yg sedang mengandung ketika ini pun rase sebegitu. hahaha

since i'm at 16 weeks of pregnancy....more often like to talk with my baby. everytime bile kena sakat ngan hubby selalu ngadu kat baby...hahaha. cakap kat dia, abah suka sangat sakat mummy... abah notty!

now when its come to shopping...everything mesti barang tuk baby. hanye untuk baby. mummy and abah dia neh...da tade selera da nak shopping barang kami. geram sangat tengok barang-barang baby neh. rase neh beli semua je! kata hubbyku... "buat mengucap ye yang. sudah-sudah la tu". hahaha.

this lil baby in my tummy really makes us happy all the time. anugerah Allah yang terindah dalam hidup ni. bersyukur sangat...dan harapan ku semoga...kelahiran nya nanti...adalah kelahiran yang mudah dn selamat. doa- doa la ye...=)

8 t e e n w e e k

2010-03-05T22:28:00.004+08:00

ever since entering second trimester, i feel much better. pendek kata...sangat teruja! hahaha =P

now i'm 18 weeks of pregnancy. kejap je da minggu ke 18... tak lame lagi da nak 5 month. however, i had never got a chance to feel the baby kicking yet. i do feel liltle wiggle and vibrates...but i think its only about the gas. rasenya la...hehehe

baby is growing well...alhamdulillah. tiap kali gi checkup n buat ultrasound...i can see the baby is moving and hiccup. oh sangat comel. sumtimes, dok angguk-angguk bile doc ngah scan mummy dia nye tummy sambil mengexplain ape yang patut tentang perkembangan dia. macam paham je ape yang doc cakap.

boy or girl? belum tau lagi...kite tunggu dan lihat k. ;)

happy birthday 2 me!

2010-02-19T13:36:00.003+08:00

29 the number...
29 the age...
29 is me...

being 29 years old is something! much much much happier than the year before.
triple love celebration. i'm loving it!

happy birthday marlinda! i'm so glad that i were born. Thank u mama and baba.
i love u both even more...thank u so MUCh!

Hope the next 'New happiness' will bring us much much happiness and joy! =)

getting old

2010-02-09T10:06:00.004+08:00

10 more days to go old. then i will turn to 29 this year. hey! i'm not old. 29 is just a number... :P
well, in my age... i do achieve a lot of things in my life and i'm proud of it. getting older doesn't makes me feel i'm old enough to do the things i like most.

getting old makes me really not thinking of how old i am. it's time for me to enjoy my marriage life and parenthood. enjoy and be happy with it. this year will be the great year ever... life is now enjoyable. now i have to get ready to be a mommy and parent as well.

for me when we get old...life is getting better and better. age really gives u a very different perspective of things...and its time for me to treasure the moment of life with my dear hubby and coming soon baby!

why i blog?

2010-01-28T14:52:00.003+08:00

the reason why i blog? not to show or to tell everybody about my life and what i'm up to... I blog to remind myself about the things I’ve learned, the things I know, the things I want to achieve, and the things I already do well. which keep myself focused, positive and moving forward and as a record of how far I’ve come.

basically i love to share some information that i know... my blog are just not because of my life only...I blog to share with them some of the things I know, and some of the things I want them to know. I blog to give them things I feel they may want, need or are missing, and to stay in communication and relationship with them.

not everybody knows about my blog...i don't share my link to most of the blogs, facebook, twitter, etc... except my friends. so, kalo ade pun maybe diorang secara tak sengaja terbrowse dn terbace my blog.

kesimpulannye...it's another way for me to restore my memory, gain information and share information. blogging makes me hilangkan stress juga...and it makes me feel good! tapi tak semestinya tiap kali i berblog, i tengah stress atau ngah emo k... ;)

happy cake

2010-01-27T16:57:00.002+08:00

i love to do something which needs me to be creative and innovative. i just browsed to a website and i saw this cute diaper cake suitable for baby shower and gift. thinking of doing something special for someone this coming February.

p.s: oh bile mau pegi membeli belah ye? can't wait to start...

when i see u

2010-01-24T17:00:00.004+08:00

last thursday...i went for checkup. it was my first time when i see my lil' baby floating and swimming inside my tummy. so amazing. macam nak nanges pun ade. speechless ok. tengok lil baby mcm melompat2 dlm tummy neh a bit mcm tak percaya je...tapi tu la hakikatnya.

i am so happy...alhamdulillah baby sihat. hampir cukup sifat cume ade certain part yang lom develop lagi... i'm currently 13 weeks of my pregnancy. for the past 3 month... no morning sickness at all. only nausea and dizzy sket2 bile dah malam. syukur sangat-sangat. adatla bile mengandung mesti ade abdominal pain and saket-saket pinggang coz tu rase saket bile baby tengah nak membesar dn nk develop organ-organ dlm badan..

lately neh... me da start rajen. tamo da malas-malas. even though sumtimes i have no energy and getting pretty uncomfortable...tapi tamo la ikut kan perasaan sangat. is not good for me n baby.

bile masuk 13 weeks...its getting more excited. tak sabar nak masuk second trimester. =)

Starting It Off Right

2010-01-14T11:30:00.005+08:00

This year i will..

be a mommy!
lose weight after my confinement
thinking of buying a house...find a better place to invest in future.
help hubby looking for an apartment, condo or terrace house which is in affordable and reasonable price to rent.
find a good online business other than photography and designing.
step out of my comfort zone and will take risks, add variety and become more creative.
be a great role model. this will make me a better wife, parent, friend, photographer and designer.
be more positive.
manage my shopping budget and money.
less shopping...huahuahua. enough being a shopaholic!

cry baby cry

2010-01-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

During my pregnancy my body has been to undergo some tremendous changes in hormone levels. Mood swings are very common because of these hormone changes and it is not something i have much control over. Nearly all pregnant women are prone to emotional ups and downs. And it happens to me also. Common “side effects” include bouts of feeling unsure and panicky, extreme reactions to minor things and even crying.

i usually cry when i feel sick...it even makes me sick whenever hubby is not around me.

p.s: now, i know...

pantang larang...

2010-01-08T15:10:00.011+08:00

Amit-amit jabang bayi, ojo kaget!

AYAT di atas yang bermaksud 'moga bayi yang dikandung tidak terkejut' sering disebut oleh ibu-ibu mengandung (yang berketurunan Jawa) ketika mereka tersentak atau terkejutkan sesuatu.

Mereka yang berketurunan Jawa percaya bahawa seseorang wanita mengandung yang terkejut atau terperanjat boleh memudaratkan bayinya.

Seperti contoh, sekiranya seorang wanita mengandung itu terkejut apabila terlihat muka seseorang yang hodoh, wanita itu perlu cepat-cepat menghentak kaki ke tanah sebanyak tiga kali lalu menyebut ayat di atas sambil mengurut-urut perutnya.

Jika tidak, janin akan turut terkejut dan mungkin terkenan dengan lahir berwajah hodoh.

Konsep terkenan membawa maksud terpengaruh pada keadaan sesuatu yang luar biasa, boleh jadi buruk atau baik, sehinggakan turut menjejas kandungan ibu mengandung.

Selalunya, terkenan membawa kemudaratan.

Jarang sekali wanita mengandung terkenan pada sesuatu yang baik kerana terkenan selalu berlaku kerana wanita mengandung itu terkejut apabila melihat sesuatu yang luar biasa.

Masyarakat Melayu sehingga sekarang masih lagi percaya pada konsep terkenan.

Justeru, banyak pantang larang wanita mengandung yang masih diamalkan untuk mengelakkan musibah ini.

Jangan minum air kelapa dan air nenas pada trimester pertama.

* dikhuatiri bayi akan gugur.

Jangan mengikat mati benang, plastik atau sebagainya.

* dikhuatiri ibu sukar melahirkan.

Jangan mengetuk dinding rumah.

* dikhuatiri uri bayi akan melekat pada rahim, biarpun bayi telah selamat dilahirkan.

Jangan mandi malam.

* dikhuatiri air ketuban akan berlebihan sehingga memudaratkan bayi dlm kandungan.

Jangan banyak minum ais.

* dikhuatiri saiz bayi akan besar dan sukar dilahirkan. Ada juga sesetengah pendapat
mengatakan takut bayi mudah dijangkiti demam kuning.

Elakkan minuman bergas dan kafein.

* dikhuatiri kandungan mudah gugur.

Jangan lilit tuala pada leher dan pada rambut (utk keringkan rambut)

* dikhuatiri tali pusat akan melilit leher bayi.

Kurangkan mkn buah oren.

* dikhuatiri bayi dilahirkan byk kahak.

Elakkan membuat kerja2 menjahit.

* dikhuatiri tali pusat anak akan berbelit dan sukar melahirkan.

Apabila terlihat benda yg pelik, cepat2 beristighfar.

* dikhuatiri bayi akan mengenan.

Kurangkan mkn pisang.

* pisang menyebabkan rambut bayi terlalu lebat.

Jangan memburu atau membunuh binatang. (bg suami dan isteri)

* dikhuatiri sukar utk bersalin.

Jangan mkn betik muda.

* getah yg ada padanya menyebabkan kandungan boleh gugur.

Sejauh mana kebenarannya tidak dapat dipastikan.

Masyarakat dahulu memang percaya pada konsep terkenan.

Menurut kata orang-orang tua, konsep terkenan diperkenalkan pada masyarakat Melayu dahulu, mungkin kerana takut wanita mengandung menyebut atau terdetik dalam hati kata-kata yang tidak baik terhadap sesuatu makhluk atau ciptaan Tuhan.

Konsep terkenan juga adalah semacam peringatan kepada kaum wanita yang mengandung dan suaminya supaya mempunyai perasaan sayang terhadap alam dan makhluk Tuhan serta tidak berlaku kejam.

Sesungguhnya, doa manusia atau binatang yang teraniaya selalunya dimakbulkan Tuhan.

Allah menguji manusia dengan berbagai-bagai cara dan sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Kesimpulannya, hati, mulut dan perbuatan perlu dijaga ketika hamil.

Sekiranya terkejut apabila melihat sesuatu yang pelik dan menakutkan, anggaplah pandangan sebegitu sebagai dugaan dan segeralah menyebut nama Allah dan beristighfar.

Banyakkanlah membaca Al-Quran, surah Yasin, surah Taubah, surah Yusuf, surah Luqman dan surah Maryam.

Insya-Allah, anak yang dilahirkan sihat, elok rupanya, sempurna sifatnya serta baik tingkah lakunya.

Terpulang pada individu samada hendak percaya atau tidak dengan pantang larang ni... Apapun, kita serahkan pada yang Maha berkuasa...Dia yang lebih mengetahuinya. Kita sebagai umatnya...hanya perlu berdoa dan bertawakal kepadaNYA.

p.s: "Ya Allah, Kurniakan kepadaku daripada sisi-Mu keturunan (anak) yang baik, sihat dan sempurna. Sesungguhnya Engkau sentiasa mendengar (menerima) rayuan doa hambaMu".

shopping lagi...

2010-01-05T14:06:00.005+08:00

hubby is back to work... now I'm alone again without him. boringgg.

oh...now i da 10 weeks of pregnancy...my sickness sangatla horror.
tengah hari dan malam ade lah saat paling genting bagiku. pinggangku mula saket. tak tertahan rasenya. tapi tu la...becoming a mommy kene banyak sabarnya.

As i said my previous post, hubby is so excited when he sees baby thingy. Last week, he bought a graco pack n play disney. which is sangat berbaloi harganya dan tak bole tahan dr membelinya. what i really like this pack n play thingy...it has spacious frame for baby to sleep or play. It also come with elevated changer table. i think it suitable for our baby. At first i even thought of buying a baby cot but hubby doesn't like the idea. we bought our graco pack n play at the firstfewyears shop in the curve damansara. enough with the baby shopping...we have to stop shopping for a while. don't want to get to overexcited. nanti dah masuk 5-6month baru continue balik.

ok...i think i better stop here. my back ache is killing me now. later 2becontinue...

ugly me

2009-12-29T10:24:00.009+08:00

Since i was pregnant...i see a lot of changes. kekadang rase takut juga...

I begin to see many changes on my skin such as a sudden new glow on your face or pinkish but sumtimes it looks even hideous...sumtimes my face are reddish and itchy. pedih gak kadang-kadang. There are also pimple breakout and acne.

I read in the internet… they say that it’s a common discomfort changes for pregnant and not every pregnant woman will experience all the same skin changes. Hmm…I feel so stress out with my face.

Rase macam buruk sangat. Even if cover with the makeup pun still gak nampak.

Hubby suggests that we should find a cream that can help with my skin problem. Tapi kan I ade bace gak…nak cari cream muka tu pun kene tengok gak. Bukan boleh hentam beli je dn pakai. Kena pakai fragrance free soap and stay away from any acne medicated astringents coz they may contain acne medicine that may not be recommended for pregnant women. Atau lebih elok kalo kite dapatkan nasihat doctor cream ape yang sesuai dengan kita.

pernah skali i letak cream yang tak bersesuaian dengan muka sebelum bace kat internet...rase macam terbakar je muka. gatal-gatal dan pedih gila. so moral of the story...before do anything within ur pregnancy do get other people opinions or doctor. jangan memandai-mandai. sekian terima kasih. =P

wedding invitation

2009-12-28T16:55:00.005+08:00

December is full with wedding invitation. and bcoz of my pregnancy sickness...most of the wedding i cannot attend. how is that?

including last week...3 wedding i did not attend. feel bad coz my friends do come to our wedding day but us? forget the two wedding...but the other one is my hubby best mate. i really wanted to attend their wedding in johor. excited sangat2...dah pack our stuff...hotel pun pengantin sponser...minyak kete dn toll serta makanan juga di sponser...tinggal bawak diri je pergi ke sane. but last last on the thursday nite i had a very bad abdominal pain until the morning which is that i couldn't even sleep. hubby said we have to cancel our trip since he was worried if anything happens during the trip. coz we all supposed to konvoi ramai2 with the pengantin family to johor. mane lah tahu saket perut ku bertambah agresif dalam perjalanan nanti tak ke susah kan semua orang?

hmmm...seb baek hubby best mate buat other reception on next week. i really hope that i can make it on that day. kali neh wedding garden in taman botanic putrajaya. harap-harap jangan la saket lagi...

getting a new sandal...

2009-12-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

hubby is still sleeping while i was bloging...

asik tdo je...sangat boring ok.

hubby is taking one week leave. yeayness...

now i have my hubby around me for one whole week.

oh this morning....hubby buat bekfast. he made nasi goreng.

sangat kelam kabut ok. seb baek sedap. hehehe.

jap lagi nak pi subang parade. need to buy some new sandal.

yeah my crocs heel is not good for me to wear it now.

preggy makes me even more tired and sangat malas untuk berjalan-jalan.

that's why i need to find new sandal that makes me more comfortable when i walk.

scholl is my choice..i thought i would like to try other crocs. but i can't help the comfortness of the scholl. so...hubby let's go and buy!

e n f a m a m a

2009-12-23T11:39:00.002+08:00

Enfa mama is super duper tak sedap...other people probably like it so much but not me.
perisa coklat susu yang ade rase vanila sket2 sangat memualkan ok. nak abeskan setengah cawan pun susah. tapi ku telan juga demi baby.

after this hubby kene tuka susu annmum semule...itupun setelah Enfamama abes. xelok membazir. oh darn...camne nak abes kan neh???

tapi kan tak dinafikan EnfaMama lagi bagus dari Annmum. coz Enfamama provides important nutrients like DHA and Choline. DHA is found in breast milk. Enfamama also formulated with:
• iron for formation of red blood cells, which carry oxygen to all parts of the body.
• high folic acid for proper growth and development.
• high calcium to support strong bones and teeth.

hmm...what to do. lets have another couple of week try on Enfamama. If its not ok...then i probably have to change back to Annmum.

e x c i t e d n e s s

2009-12-22T11:15:00.003+08:00

hmmm...today, nak story about mothercare.
nowadays, pegi mothercare sangatlah heaven ok.
i love being there...usha barang tu usha barang neh...list down dalam kepale what to buy next next time. nak beli tapi macam terlalu awal la plak kan nak beli kelengkapan dn keperluan baby.

have to wait...by the time 6-7 month da bole beli kot. oh hubby lagi excited dari me...sekarang neh selalu sangat suruh list down barang2 baby nak beli bulan neh...isk isk isk. buat bertenang. masih awal lagi. sabar ye yang.

however, my hubby is much much excited when he see babyGap newborn shirt and bought it. agagaga...see how excited my hubby is...?

oh my Annmum is finished already...now i'm changing to Enfamama. hubby cakap susu neh lagi bagus. okla lets have a try...mane tau lagi bes ke.

p.s: forget about d grammar!

feeling sick

2009-12-20T15:42:00.004+08:00

I'm in my 7th++ week of pregnancy.I was already feeling fatigue from the beginning of the pregnancy, but now I have constant nausea and dizzy to handle at the same time.

It may be worse in the nite, but i most suffers throughout the evening until nite. which is i so cannot tahan lah. i usually feel some abdominal cramping and mild twinges.

I feel sick all the time...often feel that nobody really understands what i'm going through. But surprisingly, hubby do feel the same as me...he do feel my sickness eventhough not as much as i do. he sumtimes get nausea and vomit. pity on him...anyway, My hubby has been incredibly supportive of me during my pregnancy. He does everything around ... Ever since he has always been there taking care of me. so sweet.

being pregnant...

2009-12-16T11:05:00.003+08:00

many wonderful things have happened to me past few weeks. it maybe hard to believe that i am pregnant! yes i'm pregnant!

i was being dread those discomforts such as fever and feel like to vomit but do not vomit at all. i'm now spoil myself by eating...my favorite breakfast is scramble egg with bread and orange juice. since i was pregnant...i need to drink dairy products which is so i don't like. but because of the baby i have to 'telan' no matter what. anyway, since then i'm starting to like it.

oh i'm too lazy rite now... lazy to cleanup my bed and house. lazy to go out... most of the time i love to take nap. how is it?

n e w

2009-12-08T10:06:00.001+08:00

something that i would like to tell people out there...
but have to keep it secret untill its confirmed.

OMG i still can't believe. juz wait next week...

besties . dinner

2009-11-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

looking forward to see my besties this coming tuesday nite! cannot wait lah...=P

i hate missing u...

2009-11-05T14:36:00.005+08:00

I wish I didn't have to miss u. If only u could be with me always. If only i could be in ur arms again and waking moment with u.

I wish u were right here with me now so it wouldn't be so hard for me to miss u...

Even though it is so hard to be away from u. The 230 kilometres will not destroy us, we both know we are strong enough to make it through. I'll be waiting u again n again...

p.s: katakan je la aku jiwang...aku tak kisah...memang ari nih aku jiwang!
p.p.s: yes lah hubby balik esok!

shopping theraphy

2009-11-02T21:05:00.004+08:00

last saturday was good. it was awesome. shopping is always my best therapy ever and hubby is so sweet. I always thought shopping therapy only exist in woman's dictionary but hubby is more like me. hehehe. And we burnt almost 1k in one evening shopping for perfumes, cosmetic, clothes and household. woweee...

some of our shopping haul

i can't live without u

2009-10-29T15:39:00.004+08:00

Last nite makes me keep thinking...i juz can't live without him. I would give up anything just to be with him.

God's gift to me is you and you are the air that I breathe.

yayang...i love u so so so MUCH!

p.s: last two days, its been 4 month already...happy4monthdear!

last weekend...

2009-10-27T19:30:00.008+08:00

Last weekend w/ my Hubby's nice. tea at the loaf. super duper delicious.
lenkali saye mau pegi lagi laa... =P

after tea session then we off for shopping...yippies...i love shopping!

hubby sangat baek hati...thanx for the shopping treat. murah rezeki u dear =)

after shopping, we then went to flamingo hotel...hubby ade kursus kat FINAS this week. so dia duk sane lah...so that evening me temankan dia check in.

balik dr flamingo, we had dinner at the yellow cab taipan. not so bad...new york finest is good but hubby don't like it. huhu.

after that we go for body massage at klang. haiyooo saket woo orang tu massage. sampai skang lom ilang lagi saket. esok malam hubby will continue the massage...i wonder how dia bole tahan saket...errrr =|

ya beda beduuu

2009-10-23T17:05:00.002+08:00

this morning i wake up early...after my subuh pray. benar kata orang pintu rezeki terbuka selepas subuh. itupun selepas subuh kalo kite tak tdo semula. luckily me, coz october is the best month ever. rezeki ku sangat melimpah ruah. syukur kepadaNYA kerna rezeki dn rahmat yang diturunkan kepada ku. syukur alhamdulillah. moga-moga lepas ni datang lagi rezeki berlipat ganda...aminnn

yeayyy...hubby balik jap lagi then off we will go to his mom house. this weekend, we will be staying at my mom in laws. oh i wonder what she will be cooking tonite. yummies...i miss her cooking.;)

oh i better get going...need to take bath before hubby gets mad. hahaha =P

Thinking of my hubby...

2009-10-15T13:12:00.003+08:00

Another day down another day closer until he will be home and me in his arms again. It was hard to let him go again but needed to be strong for him as well as myself. Times i felt like no one understood what was going on to see how hard it was i didn't want to be left alone but i was not alone i have my family with me. Its a hard thing to go through but work is work...need to understand that. I know he is here with me i know i make him happy when he hears my voice when he calls and that he is missed. One thing that i would remember love will and does get you through anything :)

p.s: i love u hubby!
p.p.s: see u tomorrow hubby ku!

b l o o m y . d e a d

2009-09-30T13:09:00.005+08:00

flowers not always bloom all the time...

back to normal...

2009-09-29T13:37:00.006+08:00

i've been slightly absent from posting for a while. But don't you worry... i do actually still exist. I've just been attempting to free myself from the computer as often as possible lately...yeah u know being a wife is not that easy. There is a lot much work to do...anyway, i'm happy as always.

being jobless is kind of boring to me...but luckily i have freelance work waiting for me. ;)
i'm now currently looking for another job that suits with my interest. i love design...i love photography too. something that suits with that two interest will be fine to me.

raye is awesome this year. happy that we got to get along with both relatives. my cousins likes him. the food are yummies...mom in laws cooking makes me full all the time. oh...my parent still gave me duit raye. i love u mama n baba!

hubby is back to work and i miss him already... =(

Lebaran datang lagi...

2009-09-18T11:40:00.003+08:00

ooh bersawang suda blog ku neh...
actually, takde mende pun nak tulis. hehehe

tapi...puase kali neh sungguh berlainan sekali...coz dapat berpuase bersame hubby tersayang.
puas hati jaga makan minum dia. selalu i jarang sahur tapi kerna si hubby ade so harusla kene sahur. orang puase makin kurus...i makin berisi. isk isk isk.

lagik dua hari nak raye. oh tak sabar nye. raye bersame hubby.
first raye at my mom in law house...then petang off to johor at my mom's kampung.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri peoples!
maaf zahir batin ;)

d i f f e r e n t

2009-07-22T15:51:00.004+08:00

hi I'm Marlinda...I'm a wife!
can't really believe until now that i finally be a wife to him...
after all, yes baby we made it! kite dah kawen!

“How is married life?”. I always smile and give my answer in one word. “

Different”. Different because life can never be the same again...
I have been happily married for almost a month now. I enjoy every single moment we spend together.

Yes I much more happier now...
coz i know he's the only man for me...
the one who can take care of me...
and he loves me a lot! ;)

| officially husband n wife |

2009-07-01T15:56:00.001+08:00

| 10 days to go |

2009-06-17T16:43:00.003+08:00

another 10 days to go... then i will be a wife.
still can't belive that i'm getting married.

i'm so so so excited but yet nervous tahap dewa.
lagi dekat nak tarikh kawen makin kuat lak makan...tdo skang awal gile.
orang nak kawen makin kurus...i makin gebu. hahahha.
oh nevermind...saye pasrah ok.

currently bz with dress fitting and lots of work load.
time nak kawen neh dilambakkan oleh keje2.
saje je kan bos aku neh.
anyway, i'll make sure my work done before i get married.

oh can't to wait him...
i miss him...so so so MUCH!

| b z m o o n |

2009-05-28T14:42:00.004+08:00

less than 29 days, it will be my akad nikah. OMG can't believe it.
for all these days...i thought its still a long way to go before the marriage.
within these days its been a bz bz bz month for me to handle things out.
i wish i get enough rest.

speaking of rest... there will be no honeymoon for us since both of us were too bz with our new work. pendek kata...tade cuti ok. cuti untuk kahwin je. kasihannn kan.

takpe lah mini moon sudey. honeymoon or not, for me being with him is the most happiest thing in my life!

ok enough enough... i better get going now.
tata~!

p.s: bali...oh please wait for me!

| e n e m y |

2009-05-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

for some reason that girl always want to be my enemy...
for some reason also i don't even wanna care about her and her life.

i live happily without her.
so for that reason also i better keep away and invisible to her...

p.s: no change.

| fj benjamin sale |

2009-05-15T12:20:00.003+08:00

omg fj benjamin sales is back. i’ve been to fj benjamin warehouse sale in parkroyal hotel before and frankly the items they sell are mostly for ladies but really gorgeous and in season items. the price is of course less expensive than in their store. at that time i spent a lot and i got so many items in a reasonable price which is so so so damn murah ok. paling suka borong la senza. ;)

but this year i can't manage to go. coz i'm a bit bz with my work, pre-wedding and other things which is more important to do. too bad. sob sob sob.

p.s: kalo lah bole cuti kan...

| 2 w e e k |

2009-05-13T15:43:00.005+08:00

Its been 2 weeks tak blog...
my new work, new environment and new work life is ok.
basically I'm happy with my work but for the environment... i don't like at all.
however, nowadays... susah sket nak cari keje bagus coz semua company banyak buang orang.
so...live and happy with it even though don't like it.

got other offer also... but design and advertising company requires me to work in a long hour which is everybody already asleep but I'm still working. not good and safe at all.

so i decided to work in serdang instead at kl or pj city... which is only that i have to work during office hour only. Never mind, rezeki tu ade je dimana-mana. kalo ade rezeki laen yg bagus...lagi bagus. that... have to wait lah. ;)

it's been 2 week also... i have been in a long distance relationship with him. sumhow there is no problem at all. everything seems ok. every time we see each other we talk and laugh more often mcm org gile pun ade. hahaha terlebey suda. janji kami happy! :)

| 4 . m a y . 2 0 0 9 |

2009-05-03T19:54:00.001+08:00

tommorow, is a start...
starting a new work...
starting in a new environment...
starting to have a new experiences...

it's not juz me...but also to him.

4 may is a good start for both of us...
hope everything went well and get used to it.

for me... behind all the things that happens should have some good reason inside it.

p.s: oh i'm gonna mish him...

| to . be . sell . but . not |

2009-05-03T19:27:00.003+08:00

yesterday... i went to parkson warehouse sale with my dear coz he wanted to find some singlet and tie. nothing much that i can say about this sale...bowwwring ok. lot's of men stuff. metrojaya warehouse sale is better then this one. the warehouse sale is held in sunken plaza subang parade and it was so hot in there. oh..we accidentally met addin(azam's bff) there...

then, after we had our "lunch and dinner" with addin... we both went to the zara, md and pb warehouse sale in cineleisure mall. when we went there, we don't actually have to queue like other people had did past few days. if not...i malas to go in. the sales is ok... was surprise that all the trousers and jeans are much cheaper and affordable for lots of people to buy. i got zara pants. and i love it. thank u sayanggg. *hugs

what is that i was so upset is the massimo dutti pants. there is one md pants that i like so much but without the price tag. so when we want to pay our things... i ask the cashier how much is it and guess what... it's only rm59.90 and the original price is rm599.90. gile banyak murah. but the thing is...that pants came with a suit. but the suit is no where...which is that they cannot sell it to me juz because the suit are missing....huwaaaa...

p.s: it's ok... i got some better things* from him. thanxxx yang :)

| r e n d u l a a |

2009-04-29T20:43:00.002+08:00

saye rindu dia....
saye rindu dia....
saye rindu dia....

hmm... camne neh nak berjauhan ngan dia???

p.s: kesian saye... :(

| k o m p i u s |

2009-04-28T19:45:00.003+08:00

all i need is a clue...
i'm a bit confius.

however, i really felt that... some good reason behind it...
and only god knows why.

p.s: am i ready yet?

| s a l e . i s . e v e r y w h e r e |

2009-04-24T21:21:00.004+08:00

nowadays, hot sale is everywhere... sangat la gile when it comes with fragrance and cosmetic. luckily, i've bought all my barang hantaran before my favourite sales started this month. if not...barang hantaran tah kemane...barang laen yang dibelinyaaa...agagaga.

for today, i went metrojaya warehouse sale in shah alam...ok, seb baek tak ramai orang coz we went there by the time orang dah abes prayer, lunch and back to their workplace. so quite lucky tayah nak berpusu-pusu. bought 3 perrfumes...jean perry pillows, boxers for my bro, hair color for my mom. aiyarkkk...abes da duit. hadiah besday mama lom beli neh. by 4.30 orang dah start ramai and we all da start pening coz dah ramai kan.

after our shopping spree..me, my dad and sis went to parkson subang parade coz today is parkson membership day and besides that we want to buy my mom favourite perfume for her birthday gift... ohh probably a bit pelik my dad ikut we all shopping...fyi, dia pun kaki shopping gak. juz like me and my sis. ;)

we ended buying jadore christian dior gift set worth rm395, 100ml perfume with shower gel and lotion also come with a jewelery box. good one...i like!

tomorow, me and my fiance are going to look out on our mock up wedding card which is ready by 11 a.m. can't wait to see the final outcome eventhough it juz a simple wedding card.

ok...that's all for today...hehehe. daa~

| w o r k |

2009-04-22T18:02:00.006+08:00

i'm starting to get bz and bz...
first...my fiance is moving out to negeri sembilan this coming may.
he got a new job. it's a good turning for him...
congratulation!

for me, besides the wedding preparations...i'm bz with my tight interviews schedule...
i got the offer...but some of them are not suitable for me.
and today... i went for another interview.
he did not even open my portfolios...juz chit chat a while and then... omg he's offering me a job!
me? of course i wolud love to...coz i'm interested with the job scope.
but the problem is... its far from my house. serdang ok?
macam ne neh...? nak amek ke tak?
harus bagitau keputusan by this friday... :(

have to think fast...eventhough i'm waiting for other offer from one big company... but still...
takkan nak tunggu kot... rezeki ade di depan mata... sebelum ni dah tolak satu dua rezeki...
takkan nak tolak lagi?

hmmm... must think wisely.

oh gotta go... cooking time. ;)

p.s: rezeki nak kawen...

| s y u k u r 7 |

2009-04-16T13:37:00.003+08:00

everything went perfectly...
i'm happy as it is...

syukur alhamdulillah segalanya berpihak kepada aku...
and for that... aku telah bernazar.
today is my final day of nazar.
alhamdulillah...cukup seminggu.

thank to the god...for all the help.

| that . reason |

2009-04-14T21:15:00.007+08:00

uncomfortable...isn't it the way i feel, the word we use more often. It is also something that rubs shoulders with a lot other jargons in English - embarrassment, depression, stress, hatred… and what not.

My mind is right now flooded with n number of reasons to feel uncomfortable about… Never mind. I trust there would be a finite solution to these infinite causes..

more probably i think to much...
oh come on...

i have so many reason to be happy at...don't think too much and get stressed out.
be happy and smile ok?

p.s: kasihannnnn =P

| m y . f e e t |

2009-04-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

ouch ouch ouch...
it was so damn hurt ok.
is there anything I can do?

i think i need a predicure
or probably need another massage?
oh no not another one...cukup cukup cukup ya.
udah taktahan ok! no thank u.

| 3 2 m o n t h |

2009-04-08T23:40:00.006+08:00

life is weird...
sumtimes we get the happy sumtime we get upset..
there will always be upside down in our life.

for me how hard life is...i must go on. no matter what.
and for me also...i had a great man that always make me happy and sad.
yeah i get both. everyone is not perfect so do him...but for me he's almost perfect.
he do anything to make me happy...he sacrifice everything to make me smile and wipe my tears.
for all this while he's been a great fiance.

dear,

I am
SO lucky...

i love u...SO MUCH!
happy 32 month anniversary yayang.

2009-04-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

next shopping...

kene carik tudung for nikah and bertandang.
malasnye nak pi jalan TAR dn masjid india...

2009-04-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

dear hubby to be...

thanx 4 d lovely handphone.
i love u yayang!

| o h . t s u n a m i |

2009-04-07T19:02:00.003+08:00

oh oh oh...

read this from a friend blog...
There is a prediction that there will be another tsunami hitting on July 22nd. It is also when there will be sun eclipse. Predicted that it is going 2 be really bad and countries like Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak), Singapore, Maldives, Australia, Mauritius, Si Lanka, India, Indonesia, Philippines are going 2 be badly hit. Please try and stay away from the beaches in July.

huwaaa...need to cancel our plan for honeymoon. Better 2 be safe than sorry.
haishhhh... :(

p.s: next pls?

| a n . u n c l e . j u s t . l i k e . u |

2009-04-04T00:32:00.007+08:00

i want u to know...u mean a world to me!

| f u n |

2009-04-03T23:41:00.005+08:00

it's been a while i didn't blog...
i think its time for a change. i probably will be blogging actively this time.

oh my uncle juz came back from UK last three weeks. guess what???
can't imagine that he bought 5 handbag not including the clothes plus the delicious chocolates from marks and spencer and also from lindor. we always like those chocolates.. i'm so in love with all the things u bring back for me. i guess u r way too cool... u know what we like what we love! one week shopping spree with u in KL and everywhere is really a blast. good teraphy. less tension. thank you uncle deary...i'm loving it! i love love love u!
now is that he is back to his home town last saturday. i'm starting to miss him a lot. oh i'm in need for some amount of money so that i can go to London next year for holiday..probably with my love one...my hubby ;)

ok Now, i'm currently bz with my wedding preparation.
so excited and having fun with it.
saye sangat suke!

ok relax bole tak?
hehehehe.

wedding preparation is now 65%.
senang ade wedding planner neh...tayah nak pening pale sangat.
tau semua menda dah siap cume mende2 yang betul2 penting je kite handle...
hope everything went well seperti mane yang dirancangkan.
less than 3 month, we are getting married.
oh my goshhh.

i really can't wait! tak sabarnyeeee

| a k u . i n g i n |

2008-12-05T18:22:00.003+08:00

aku ingin kau ada...
menemani aku.

aku ingin kau selalu...
hadir dn temani aku di setiap luka, duka, sukaku.

aku ingin kau ade
bersamaku...

hari ini dan selamanya...

p.s: i really hope...

| h o l i d a y |

2008-10-23T12:58:00.003+08:00

holiday makes me feel gud...
but at the same time makes me feel boring also.

there are so many event plus rumah kawan2 terapat that i need to attend.
but i'm so malas... since raya has 30 days so better try to do so.
luckily the 30 days raye almost end another one and half week.

actually holiday tak holiday pun same je. i need to get prepared with my final year project next sem since it was short sem. so, have to think and do some progress work if not i'll be dead next sem.

i hope i pass all my subject last sem. coz it quite a hard time for me last sem.
the exam also hard. sangat susah ok. takleh jawab lansung. main hentam.

sumore this holiday is boring coz my darling is so bz with his work.
he is now shift to channel 9 until the end of year.
and nite shift. sangat boringggg ok.
susah nak keluar ngan dia siang hari even weekend.
coz sumtimes he need to be at the office also on weekends.

better stop here coz i need to do something important...;)

p.s: i mish him...a lottttt!

| bz . h o l i d a y |

2008-10-13T23:31:00.003+08:00

currently, i'm bz with my work.
lot's of thinking and ideas need to be flush out...

oh i can't wait for my holiday.
even i'm at home for my whole holiday...

oh tdo tu penting buat saye ok?
:)

p.s: saye penat sangat-sangat

| b u l a n . m e n a n g i s . l a g i |

2008-10-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

untuk kali ini ketika dia memeluk ku...
aku terase sangat hiba dan sayu...
hingga aku menitiskan airmata dan menangis teresak-esak di dalam pelukkannya...

mungkin kerna kesedihan yang tidak mampu ku tahan lagi
atau mungkin kerna kesakitan yang aku alami kerna terlalu memendam rase.

entah lah...

hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu mengapa.
hanya tuhan saja yang paham akan aku yang ganjil ini...

| o n e . s t r i k e |

2008-10-09T21:07:00.003+08:00

i found sumthing...
well not a sumthing...

probably would call something like a news.
hot from the oven...

finally she gets one.
alhamdulillahhhh...

i do not need to worried too much anymore.
she's been a needle in us.
i hope this time she won't bother us anymore.

thank god!

p.s: oh thats not a big relief anyway...almost there.

| c u t e y b z |

2008-10-08T01:06:00.002+08:00

yeayyy...cuteybz saye udah sehat...
kangen bangat...

walaupun slow tapi banyak berjasa...

oh cuteybz itu ade lah pc saye...ehe...;)

p.s: back to normal....

| b u l a n |

2008-10-07T08:49:00.000+08:00

malam tadi bulan menangis lagi...

| m a n u s i a . i n i |

2008-10-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

kadang kala manusia ni mudah lupa...
bila dia dah senang dah suka... dia mudah lupa.

kadang kala manusia ni tidak pernah nak hargai orang disekeliling nya...
pabila dia pergi dan hilang dari pandangan kita...baru kita sedar akan kehilangan nya...
baru kite sedar bagaimane rase nya bila kite terlalu rendu sangat untuk berjumpa dengan nya.

| s i l e n c e |

2008-10-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

it's been a while i did not "blogging" since my last blog.
currently i'm starting to start my unfinished assignments which is the due date will be on the 17 october. sumore i need to study for my basic economic, management and accounting coz i got an exam on the 10.

life is so boring lately. i have no mood for everything incudings raye! i don't know how to spill it out... i juz can't share anything with anybody rite now. i'm a lone ranger which is not actualy alone by myself out there. it juz that i couldn't.

life is not easy for me now. i got lots of thing in my mind.
i get migrained easily now.

to be honest, i'm not happy at all. i easily get hurt and pendam dalam hati.
thats it. i know it will makan dalam dn merusak kan jiwa kita kalo selalu sangat memendam rase.
however it is...its better to be like this...

i have my own reason being like this. one strong reason.
i juz don't know if one day it would explode, or else it should juz to be silence until the end.
who probably knows what my problem is... no need to care.

only that i can say rite now....
i'm tired of everything....
yes everything.

i need a break.

p.s: something is better left unspoken...

| m i s h O u |

2008-09-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

kangen bangat ama dia...

| k o s o n g - k o s o n g |

2008-09-08T08:52:00.002+08:00

menangis bukan penyelesaian nye...
menyimpan dendam juga bukan sesuatu yang baik...

biarkan ia berlalu...seperti dedaun yang ditiup angin.

ya biarkan...

| c a n ' t . b r e a t h . w i t h o u t . u |

2008-09-08T08:09:00.003+08:00

i hardly can't breath last nite.
so hard until i cry so hard and call my deary.

everyone was asleep except me.
breath through my mouth and crying until i fall asleep.

p.s: kurang zat besi? apekah?

| k a d a n g - k a d a n g |

2008-09-07T20:15:00.003+08:00

kadang-kadang hati ini terasa teramat lah sangat...
kadang-kadang hati ini terpakse makan hati...

kadang-kadang juga hati ini terpaksa menahan kesabaran...
kadang-kadang juga hati ini terpakse terus memendam rase...

kadang-kadang tu yang bawa bahana...
kadang-kadang tu yang bawa kelukaan...

kadang-kadang terpikir...
sampai bile harus begini...

p.s: sy terima ketentuanNYA

| l o v e |

2008-09-03T21:00:00.001+08:00

i love him... and only god knows why....

| m e . h a p p y |

2008-09-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

i'm happy to be what i am now.

i'm happy with what i have now...

I have a great man.
I have a great family.
I have great friends.
I have a great relationship.

I really do have a great life.

this time this fasting month and this year, raya...
will be my last time to puase and raya with my family...
sebagai seorang anak yang tak kawen lagik tapi masih dibawah jagaan parent saye... :P

next year i'll be getting married....
yeah married.

i just can't wait. but have to wait....hehehe.
8 month to go then we officially be husband and wife.

hope that everything will goes well.

p.s: pray hard...

| t h e . b o r e d . o f . a . t y p i c a l . w e d d i n g |

2008-09-03T17:00:00.003+08:00

for time being...
i'm getting bored of taking picture for a wedding.

takde adventure lansung ok?
bored bored bored!

nak nak lagik kalo kene buat editing dan photobook lagik laaa borink...

tapi nak wat macam mane?
rezeki datang takkan nak tolak?

when the day has come...i'll quit.

for good...

p.s: lepas kawen ok?

| s a y a n g . s a y a n g |

2008-09-02T21:45:00.002+08:00

makin hari makin sayang dia...

;)

p.s: hati berbunga-bunga

| j o m . j a l a n - j a l a n |

2008-08-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

due to Mr k car breakdown, the presentation was canceled.

yeay!

p.s: hari neh saye mau keluar dr kepompong...

| p r e s e n t |

2008-08-14T08:54:00.002+08:00

today is my second day presentation for my fyp ideas...

wish me luck

coz i need it most!

p.s: esok nak jumpe dia...tak saba nyeee!

| s a n g a t . t a k . c o n f i d e n t |

2008-08-12T23:36:00.004+08:00

i'm trying to break free from the miseries of low self esteem.
to have greater self-awareness or understanding means to have a better grasp of reality.

i'm so lack in self confident. i get nervous tak tentu pasal easily.

however, i need to get away from this. if not it will be so hard in the future.

thinking of it...i'm alone.
and i shall do it.
yeah just do it!

and lives free of error.

p.s: get up!

| d o w n |

2008-08-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

sometime crying actually makes me feel better.

it will releases chemicals to make me feel better
and this lets out my emotions.

i cry again thinking about all the things that happen today.

down...down the underground.

p.s: i don't want to fail.

| s t r e s s f u l l . t i m e |

2008-08-12T16:55:00.004+08:00

my ideas been rejected.
i know its not a strong ideas anyway.

but have to present it since its a major 'surprise' presentation which i don't really ready for it.
really surprised that we have to present this morning. without any preparation i get nervous easily. and what i fear most give me back. i'm so nervous until i did not know how to tell and explain my ideas and work. i'm lost and speechless.

i was being 'bang' like a bomb that has been thrown in front of my face. i get 0 over 100%. how could u imagine how i felt rite now. deep down inside. i don't want to cry anymore coz i cry a lot these days. so rather than crying, its better to work hard within 48hours that he gave to me to be well prepared and present new ideas on next thursday morning.

eventhough is not only me being rejected. all my classmates also fail to this presentation ideas. the highest probably get only 42 out of 100%. not even 50% for the passing mark. forget about them. it's me that have to be more conscious with my ideas and work. think out of the box. something which is not cliche and too direct.

theres a lot of work to be done. but i'm out of service. i don't feel well. i need rest. a lot. my back hurt me a lot and i have no enough time to sleep or even eat.

i wish i had the big idea! really big one so that i can have time for myself. but that would not happen.

p.s: wish u could comfort me...

| l o v e . p e r s p e c t i v e |

2008-08-12T16:41:00.003+08:00

couplehood isn't always idyllic. how a couple goes through less than perfect times determines the actual strength of a relationship and each person in it. there are probably a few things going on here that are turning on me usually small things into bigger problems.

everyone handles change differently. i have many major lifestyle changes happening. they are bound to affect my attitude and perspectives somehow. now it's time to for me to take some time to relax and put things in perspective.

p.s: takkan ada cinta yang lain.

| l i f e . a n d . l i v e |

2008-08-11T18:17:00.001+08:00

life is not that easy

but must go on...

p.s: i mish d old days....

| i d e a s . p l e a se |

2008-08-07T19:16:00.003+08:00

25 ideas means 25 sketches

now i only did not less than 6.

oh dear how and what to do???

i'm lack of ideas.

ideas please come to me...pretty pleaseeee....

| l o o k i n g . f o r w a r d |

2008-08-04T12:21:00.004+08:00

i'm leaving behind all the unfocused thing.

now i should focused on more with my final year project.

sumore i need a loads of thing to do before i end up my studies this year.

i just can't wait to finish my studies.

for all these years...i'm so so TIRED!

i want to work and get moneysss.

then married with my one and only man.

p.s: i can't wait. but have to wait :P

| s u n g g u h . t a k . p a h a m |

2008-07-31T20:05:00.002+08:00

dah bape puluh juta kali aku dah cakap kat ko.
tapi ko masih tak paham-paham gak.

letih la macam neh.

sampai bile ko nak paham haa?

hanginlaa...

tapi aku masih sabar lagi.

| a y a m . p e n y e t |

2008-07-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

i hate it when i really hungry something happen and makes me gonna throw out.
This is my first time i eat ayam penyet indonesia.
bought it in sunway and take away.

dah la lapar sebab satu hari tak makan.
tetibe rumet yang juge tapau makan benda yang same i makan...
cakap ape bende neh setelah dia menke'pak bahagian2 ayam. macam nasi tapi bile tengok betul ngan panjang nye dn texture nye baru tersedar sebenarnye ulat.
dah la gomok2...panjang lak tu...banyaknyeeeee.
eeewww.

the best thing is. mase rumet i cakap tu. I dah nak pun abes makan ok.
walaupun i positively think my punye ayam tade ulat...but duhhh....still satu minyak dn kuali ok.
huwaaaaa...nape mesti kami???

| 2 y e a r s |

2008-07-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

10 days to go...
i juz can't wait.

p.s: ;)